hey aint blogged in ages!

hey everyone aint blogged in ages! bin quite busy! i still with ASH! my boyfriend! 3 months now going really well! matt my mate that died gota website its www.gonetoosoon.co.uk and u type in matthew hunt and it will say area and u say bristol, and it will put u on it, u can light candles on it, its really nice, makes me feel better! have a look, u can see pics of him and that, and have a look at tribues and condolences that people write. college going ok suppose, got chucked out last week for arguing cuz a girl called me a dirty gypsie lol! o well! had a bloke come in today, he bin in prison for 6 years he got out yesterday, and i had to cut his hair. i was chatting to him and he said he know my dad cuz my dad goes in and chats to bouys in th prsons. he knew quite alot of people i knew lol! he said its really weird being out, cuz everything has changed, and he not used to it, i supose u would be, not seein light properly fo 6 years! i asked him what he done, but lets not go there!lol. gota go!

please someone help!grrrrrr

girls can be absolute BEEEEaaaccccHHHHeeeeSSSS!!!! sometimed i wish i could have my ld temper back lol! from school ive changed soooo much ive becoem more relaxed! but in school if anyone said anything to me i would go mental! i am soooo angry right now i could pick up this computer and put it over these girls heads!!!but nooooo!i wont lol! these girls are rely annoying me! they are sad girls that all they care about is sex drugs and drink! the other day they wer playin matts(mate that died) song, its a hearbreaking song that not long b4 he died he was playin 2 me an it was at his funural. it upsets me, and i sed to these girls ina nice way, cuz i was m8s wiv them at the time, can u not play that infront of me and explained why. an bout ten mins ago in college they put there fone by me and said i love this song its my favourite song and wer smirkin and lafin at me!!!HOW SPITFULL CAN U GET????please sum1 tell me how the heck i can cope and calm dowm in this situation. they are bullies...... man any minite now......... im not the same person i was in school i dont fet angry and aggressive quick, i am a changed person(thanx to god of course!) but nobodys perfect!!!GRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

please help!!!!

poem for matty angel(my close m8 that died)

Your cheerful smile

Your caressing hand

It's the really simple things That made your life look so grand

You were a special friend

It was in your eyes I seen the truth

There were no disguise It's your spirit Maybe your soul

But my life without you is so painfully old

You've been a true friend Im glad to say

Im so very empty now uve gone away

life and stuff........

well how am i getting on?? ive heard the sayin you need to act happy to be happy.... so is that true? well thats what i am doing, im trying, really depressed inside and angry and hurt, but supose life goes on even though sometimes u dont want it to. mayby i have came across bossy or say things to people thats rude(as a joke most of the time) but i dont mean it, i mean i love all my m8s to bits, just growin up i have learned that i dont care what people think of me(deep down i do) and dont really watch what i say!!!gets me in trouble and loses people through it, ive just started noticing the way i am, i can be bossy, and well lots of ova stuff but thats just the way iv grown up, not meaning to be!

anyway....im in college now, quite stressful! losing loads of my work blah blah blah!!! hearing people talk about how so much CRAP is going on right now in there lifes, so i ask, whats that then???as nosey as i am, and some reply and say well i ada row with my mum and my boyfriend wont answer and blah blah blah!!!! im thinkin.....what the hell!!!!! i say, u really dont know what stress is! people moan about so many petty things, not sayin i havnt cuz im a big moaner! but when sumit bad happens and u lose sooooo many things that mean so much to u, you think, all those petty things are just soooo little!! as u can see all this has been playing on my mind, thinking about all these different things, so i write it down!! LIFES A BATTLE!! supose u just gota fight it! and TRY to be strong and win it in the end.

not much else to say lol INABIT!!

sad news.... good night my sweet angel

one of my close m8s got killed ina car accident... some of u mite of seen me on the news breakin my heart puttin flowers down where my angel died. it was my bro's gf's bro, he lived at my bro's. i was soo close to him, 2 weeks ago he got me a braclet, bless him, and last week me and him babysitted 4 our nephew and niece, we wer ther on da sofa all happy watchin t.v, he went up kabab shop 4 me and got me kabab, next mornin i jumped on him 2 wake him up, and he got up and went to shop 2 get sum bread and made me toast and tea and we sat and eat in and watched matilda as he was ticklin my leg. i miss him i want him back, i loved and cared 4 him soo much, theres alot to say bout me and matt, and how close we are, but its hurtin, just ask me and mayb ill tell u. he rang me up sayin he loves me loads and me and him wer such good m8s! i found out when i was in manchester, i am cryin and in shock, my sweeet angel dies early hours saterday morning comin bk in a car, he was in the back, and there were 3 of then amd they all his in 2 wall and all 3 got killed. its all over da news and papers, read and look at it.

ive never felt pain and hurt in my life, matts up on my wall now, his pic is so lovely he had a cheecky smile and sumtimes we argued and we would say sum stuff we didnt mean then laugh about it after, he's so lovely, my sweet angel, 18 and killed. i feel like sum1 just stabbed me in the heart wiv a knife then ripped it back out and the pain wont go away, its all hot and bibbly inside me and i cant hardly breath where i miss him and im grievin. his funurals monday, i just dont know what else to say. i miss him soooo much the pain wont go,plz pray 4 larry and brie and family(my bro&gf)as they are heartbroken cuz he livd ther and they love him soooo much.

im going now. i love u so much matt, ull always have a place in my heart my sweet angell.
im still sprung on u(remember!) IM SPRUNG! goodnight.

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life can be a bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!